*2016

This is a new year we have coming up. and with this new year is coming a ton of changes.  To get you caught up on just a few: 1. I started college this fall, and I passed with flying colors (actually I would have liked to do better, but I am happy with the final grade). 2. A courtship, yes, actually this is a new one.  On Christmas eve I was asked to enter into a courtship with the most awesome silly beautiful person.  But with this comes challenges, urges, struggles, and fun.  Neither one of us has ever been in a relationship before, so not only is this new, but we are figuring out how to do this together.  It's fun! And, 3. Divorce, This one happened about six months ago, and it is still kind of new and shocking.  We are all making it through.

This year was full of change, good, and bad, but most of all it was full of growth in the Father. Looking back on my year, I don't tend to thing about the disasters (at the time) I focus on the good stuff, and the love of my Father who is never going to leave me!

If I had to pick some scriptures to "Sum up" this year, I would absolutely have to go with:

Psalm 27:10 "Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me."
Psalm 19:14 " Let my words and my thoughts be pleasing to You, Lord, because you are my mighty rock and my protector."
Matthew 6:33 "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to you."
Romans 8:18 "For I consider that the sufferings of this present time ar not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us."
Isaiah 40:31 "But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles. They shall run and not be weary. They shall walk and not faint."
Jude 1:20-21 "But you, beloved, building yourselves up in your most holy faith and praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in the love of God, waiting, for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ that leads to eternal life."


This year was good, but next year is going to be outstanding with the new and deeper relationship in the Lord! Bless and be blessed!

*2015

Well it's new years eve and I can practically feel the lips I won't be kissing tonight when the clock strikes midnight and 2015 begins with a bang. Unlike most people I will not be out at a party tonight, in fact I will most likely be asleep in my bed at midnight tonight. Don't get me wrong, I would have loved to have been invited to a party tonight, I would have loved to have gone too! But due to the lack of friends, as well as the over powering protectiveness of my mom, I shall be home sleeping when well more than half the world will be out partying and having fun, making memories that will surely last more than this year. I guess the bright side is that I won't be working? Although I honestly wouldn’t mind at all, I love my job, and I would gladly work tonight all night actually!

I just don't want to be home, in my bed, all alone tonight when 2015 begins. I don't know, maybe I should just get over it and accept that it is what it is, and that I can't change it. 2015 will start no matter what I, or anyone else has to say or do about it. It will come and go, every day will start with the sun rising, and end with the sun setting. There will be twelve months in this year, there will surely be each day according to each month as it is suppose to be.

I know that in this new year, things will be different, not because I wish they are going to be different, but because I am going to make them different. I am choosing to change my life, which in turn will change the world around me. Now I know this sounds rather drastic, I am going to change, now anything and everything else is going to change too. But really if you think about it. You change, people see it and like it, inspiring them to also change, which inspires everyone around them to change as well. It's a cause to affect chain just like dominoes. Only instead of falling, and knocking everyone else down too you are creating, building up, and moving forward in life.

This is what life is all about, getting to where you are going, not only when you are there, but how you get there, who you meet on the way, and how you can help them achieve their goal too. How you face the struggles life will give you. Because there are bound to be many many struggles, bound to be good days and bad days. You are bound to embarrass yourself so bad that you don't even want to get up the next morning and face what you have to face. But you are also bound to have great days with unending smiles, butterflies in your chest and stomach, and that awesome feeling you get inside only when you've done the right thing, or helped someone you wouldn’t have on a normal occasion.

I have never really done the whole 'New Years Resolution' thing mostly because I can't actually commit to doing something like 'I am going to start going to the gym and get fit, and lose 35 lbs.' I just can't do it, usually I end up getting really excited about something for like two to three weeks, and I stay with it wholehearted for that long, but them I forget, or miss it once or twice. Missing it multiplies to forgetting for a week or so, then eventually just not going or doing it at all. So instead of setting a new years resolution I will instead just change the way that I do things, I am going to make a conscience decision every day to see things differently, do things differently, treat people in a different way. Find happiness in the little things. Not be so angry, frustrated, or short tempered with people or circumstances in life, because half the time, I just can't do anything about it. I am going to live my life every day for the one who loves me unconditionally, for the one who has given everything to me, the one who will always be there for me no matter what I do. Yahweh, I am going to praise Him for every minute of everyday because I know that without him I am literally nothing. Without him I don’t have any hope for anything, at all. I would have no hope in tomorrow, no hope that the days would continue to come, no hope that 2015 is going to be an awesome year. With Him I have everything that I need, and most importantly I have Hope.

So to sum things up I am going into 2015 with a changed heart, with my own big bang. And you know what? who cares if I won't be getting kissed this year? I am more than positive that it will happen one year or another. 2015 is a changed year, I can feel it already. And you know what I say to anyone who tells me differently? I say That I have faith that things will turn out just exactly how God wants them to! If that means being embarrassed, or not always knowing what to say, then let it be. I say let it be. I am following what God has planned out for me. I don't know what that is, but I do know that whatever it is I am sure it will be awesome in one way or another. By this time next year, I am expecting great things to come of my new year. Hey, I'll be 18, I'll be in college, Semi on my own. I will be well on my way to my own life and however God has it planned out for me is exactly how I want it to be!